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Common rooms

[methodofmadness]

After his shift is over Chris had tasked Peggy with a very important job.

Find Germaryah.

She has a little trouble navigating floors, but she manages to check each one with the help of strangers pressing buttons for her and opening doors.

Once she's accomplished her task she flies back to Christopher in the library and coos at him. No time to lose!

He's quietly talking with her when he steps into a common room and sees a familiar head of hair on the couch.

No blushing allowed, just... just coming to check on a boy. He rounds the couch, fiddling with his hands nervously and Peggy coos again to announce their arrival.

"Hey! Um, are you okay?"

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[astraymoon]

Germaryah had taken his hair out of his scrunchie and was laying on the couch. He knew, if he asked or fallen asleep, John would have let him stay in his cabin.

But that was too much like taking advantage of him, whatever he was. So he was dozing on the couch when he heard, again, the sound of pigeon wings, and opened his eyes.

They were back to hazel. More green then brown, as he blinked up sleepily at the younger teen.

"'M fine." He had his jacket off, and had it over his lap. "Just napping."

He smelt faintly of shampoo and his curls were still a little damp. "Sorry about before, okay? I was a dick."

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"You already apologized." He'd decided with John that it wasn't fine, but that doesn't mean it isnt subject to change?

He's quiet for a moment, Peggy nudging his cheek with her beak as he mumbled under his breath a soft 'I know, I know'. He looks at the couch, unsure if he could fit when hes sprawled out, but there is some space. There's also some chairs, but... he points to the spot at his feet.

"I want to sit there. Um." He looks frustrated with himself for a second. That wasnt a question, Chris.

"Can I?"

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"Yeah, but this time I'm not freaking out." He made to sit up, rubbing at his eyes, feeling gritty. He pulled his legs up too, not seeming to care that his hair fell in his face as he sat up.

"You could. Now, may you? Yeah." Seemed even without motivation, Ger was still a jerk.

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[methodofmadness]

Chris, who had essentially done the same thing when he'd asked if he 'could' have a drink actually smiles at that. He is capable of taking some shit.

Just...not a lot.

He takes a seat, taking up more space despite his small size because of his rain coat. Peggy flutters and finds a spot on the back of the couch to nest for the moment.

He slips his sneakers off and pulls his feet up to sit cross legged and folds his hands in his lap. He's quiet a moment, bouncing his knee before he looks across the couch at the sleep-raggled teen, "why are you sleeping out here?"

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[astraymoon]

He didn't know why Christopher was here, but he entertained him anyway. Even he if did (and was) half awake, despite the undead pigeon being here.

The question had him grunt quietly.

"I can't stand looking at my cabin. That's all."

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[methodofmadness]

Firstly he was here to make sure he was okay. But more importantly he was trying to figure out how to invite him to monster club.

"There are lots of empty ones you could sleep in." That seems like a better solution than just out here. "Whats in there you don't like?"

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[astraymoon]

"I could get booted out while asleep." He sighed quietly, and got a little more sleep grit out of his eyes.

"Also, I am not going to tell you. That's private."

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[methodofmadness]

He isn't sure thats any better than sleeping on a couch out in the open.

"You could sleep in my room?" Which is...certainly an option, Peggy cooing to fill the space between if only to warn Chris that maybe that won't be taken as a solution to his problem like he meant it.

If viveka were here he'd just offer her house but unfortunately she wasnt.

"So its just going to exist there unused?" Seems like a waste.

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[astraymoon]

"I use it for some storage." He started with that, as it was easier to answer. He just didn't use it to storage for himself.

He blew out a breath, before looking at Christopher.

"You know how it sounds, having me come over to live with you? Right? Lots of people are in romantic relationships here."

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[methodofmadness]

"Why does it have to be romantic? You're just staying over, friends sleep at other people's houses." He pauses before saying, "you slept at John's. I dont think you like him like that."

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[astraymoon]

He grunted. "One, John looks out for inmates without wardens. Two. He feeds me. Three, I've only slept there once from sheer exhaustion. And four, people could take it as us being sexual, or an abuse of power on John's part."

He sighed. "Friends can sleep over, but you're talking long term, yeah? Hence...romantic."

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Christopher nods along, though he still thinks that the original point is dumb.

"I dunno. I just offered cause you didn't have anywhere to go. It doesn't have to be forever." It's for how ever long he needs it. He fiddles with his hands, "But...would it be better if we were friends?"

Cause he'd like that.

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[astraymoon]

"I have somewhere to go, but I choose not to." He grumbled. And then he frowned over at Christopher, and his hand fussing. He really didn't understand how Christopher's thought process went.

"I thought you were mad at me kissing you?"

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[methodofmadness]

"That's the same thing." At least he thinks so. He has somewhere he can go, that he feels comfortable and safe. Everyone deserves that, he thinks. And if they don't have it, he can share his. Especially for another monster.

He tilts his head at the question though, frowning, "I was. I still am. But that doesn't mean we can't be friends. Jordi gets mad at me all the time. And you apologized." He squeezes his fingers individually with his other hand, a sort of stim as he walks through his thoughts.

"John said you didn't like the word I used. But...it's my word. So, if I use it for myself, you're not allowed to get mad, okay? I wanted to explain something, but I can't until you say it's fine."

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He puffed out a breath, not realizing that it might of sounded a little like a wolf's 'boof' noise.

He still moved to bring up his legs, and made to hug them, and rested his chin on his knees.

"John is right. The word freaked me out. So...you're telling me that it's okay if you use a word that upsets me, because you use it for you? That's not how it works. You don't like me calling you a weirdo, right? Would it work if I call myself a weirdo?"

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[methodofmadness]

Christopher adds it to Germaryah's many 'but like seriously you're a wolf' attributes that is steadily growing.

"Well, if you called me a weirdo like Viveka does I wouldn't mind...she isn't saying it to make me feel bad." He points out, frowning. "And I'm not saying I'm a monster because I hate myself."

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[astraymoon]

And yet not letting him see him go furry! Rude.

"Well, when I hear monster, I don't hear something nice. I hear the people putting me down. When you say it, it sounds like you're putting yourself down."

He sighed. "It sounds like a slur. Like you're trying to make me and yourself feel bad. Does it make sense now?"

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[methodofmadness]

Christopher frowns, "I won't call you that any more, but I'm not going to just stop using it for myself. It's what I am."

He can understand what he's saying, but- "If I reclaim that word, if I embrace the parts of me humans find discomforting or needing to be destroyed, that's a good thing, isn't it? I'm taking the power back. I shouldn't have to change what I am, or how I present to make people comfortable."

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[astraymoon]

"Maybe. Maybe not."

He shrugs, and closes his eyes, chin on his knees.

"I just know people think I'm a freak, and have used that. Maybe they'll do the same to you. Or have."

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[methodofmadness]

"Oh, they do." He isnt unaware of it.

He puts a hand on the couch cushion between them and leans closer, speaking softly but seriously.

"But... where I come from, it's more than just a name to call someone. And finding other monsters is important. There was a community right under the city I grew up in, living together and not bothering anyone. But they were exterminated, just because of what they are."

They were all gone before he even knew they existed. "If I pretend that isnt who i am, maybe I'm safe, but not everyone can hide. And even if they do, hunters might still find them. So, we are stronger together."

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[astraymoon]

He didn't move, though he winced at the use of the word. Still.

"That's a history, and a shitty one at that." His own voice was soft. "I didn't know, I don't know what I am. I just found out. It might be the thing that killed me."

He swallowed, looking away.

"I'm not from your world though. You understand that? Why it's a lot to take in right now?"

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[methodofmadness]

Christopher wants him to feel like he isn't alone, wants him to feel connected, but John told him slow. He pulls back, stays on his side of the couch, frowns down at his lap.

"I'm sorry." He sniffs, glancing over at him and back at his lap.

"I spent my whole life not knowing why I was different. Trying to be normal so hard it hurt...so no, I- I guess I don't. I learned, just about a year ago, and I finally had the answer I'd been looking for to explain everything. O-or some of it." Adam didn't tell him everything, the gaps were still so immense.

"But...even if I don't understand, I still want to be your friend. And even if it bothers you? It doesn't bother me, and maybe that can help?"

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"I don't know." He kept hugging his knees. He couldn't hurt himself this way, like he used to. Something in the ship did that to him.

"I don't know. I don't know a whole lot. I don't...know if we could be friends."

He bit on his lip. Sucked on it. "But...we can try."

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[methodofmadness]

Chris was sure that with that many I don't knows the possibility of any kind of positive outcome was more slim with each one. But when Germaryah decides that it is at least worth a try, his whole face lights up.

"Yeah?"