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astraymoon

He didn't know why Christopher was here, but he entertained him anyway. Even he if did (and was) half awake, despite the undead pigeon being here.

The question had him grunt quietly.

"I can't stand looking at my cabin. That's all."

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methodofmadness

Firstly he was here to make sure he was okay. But more importantly he was trying to figure out how to invite him to monster club.

"There are lots of empty ones you could sleep in." That seems like a better solution than just out here. "Whats in there you don't like?"

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astraymoon

"I could get booted out while asleep." He sighed quietly, and got a little more sleep grit out of his eyes.

"Also, I am not going to tell you. That's private."

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methodofmadness

He isn't sure thats any better than sleeping on a couch out in the open.

"You could sleep in my room?" Which is...certainly an option, Peggy cooing to fill the space between if only to warn Chris that maybe that won't be taken as a solution to his problem like he meant it.

If viveka were here he'd just offer her house but unfortunately she wasnt.

"So its just going to exist there unused?" Seems like a waste.

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astraymoon

"I use it for some storage." He started with that, as it was easier to answer. He just didn't use it to storage for himself.

He blew out a breath, before looking at Christopher.

"You know how it sounds, having me come over to live with you? Right? Lots of people are in romantic relationships here."

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methodofmadness

"Why does it have to be romantic? You're just staying over, friends sleep at other people's houses." He pauses before saying, "you slept at John's. I dont think you like him like that."

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astraymoon

He grunted. "One, John looks out for inmates without wardens. Two. He feeds me. Three, I've only slept there once from sheer exhaustion. And four, people could take it as us being sexual, or an abuse of power on John's part."

He sighed. "Friends can sleep over, but you're talking long term, yeah? Hence...romantic."

Edited Date: 2026-03-21 04:57 pm (UTC)

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methodofmadness

Christopher nods along, though he still thinks that the original point is dumb.

"I dunno. I just offered cause you didn't have anywhere to go. It doesn't have to be forever." It's for how ever long he needs it. He fiddles with his hands, "But...would it be better if we were friends?"

Cause he'd like that.

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astraymoon

"I have somewhere to go, but I choose not to." He grumbled. And then he frowned over at Christopher, and his hand fussing. He really didn't understand how Christopher's thought process went.

"I thought you were mad at me kissing you?"

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methodofmadness

"That's the same thing." At least he thinks so. He has somewhere he can go, that he feels comfortable and safe. Everyone deserves that, he thinks. And if they don't have it, he can share his. Especially for another monster.

He tilts his head at the question though, frowning, "I was. I still am. But that doesn't mean we can't be friends. Jordi gets mad at me all the time. And you apologized." He squeezes his fingers individually with his other hand, a sort of stim as he walks through his thoughts.

"John said you didn't like the word I used. But...it's my word. So, if I use it for myself, you're not allowed to get mad, okay? I wanted to explain something, but I can't until you say it's fine."

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astraymoon

He puffed out a breath, not realizing that it might of sounded a little like a wolf's 'boof' noise.

He still moved to bring up his legs, and made to hug them, and rested his chin on his knees.

"John is right. The word freaked me out. So...you're telling me that it's okay if you use a word that upsets me, because you use it for you? That's not how it works. You don't like me calling you a weirdo, right? Would it work if I call myself a weirdo?"

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methodofmadness

Christopher adds it to Germaryah's many 'but like seriously you're a wolf' attributes that is steadily growing.

"Well, if you called me a weirdo like Viveka does I wouldn't mind...she isn't saying it to make me feel bad." He points out, frowning. "And I'm not saying I'm a monster because I hate myself."

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astraymoon

And yet not letting him see him go furry! Rude.

"Well, when I hear monster, I don't hear something nice. I hear the people putting me down. When you say it, it sounds like you're putting yourself down."

He sighed. "It sounds like a slur. Like you're trying to make me and yourself feel bad. Does it make sense now?"

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methodofmadness

Christopher frowns, "I won't call you that any more, but I'm not going to just stop using it for myself. It's what I am."

He can understand what he's saying, but- "If I reclaim that word, if I embrace the parts of me humans find discomforting or needing to be destroyed, that's a good thing, isn't it? I'm taking the power back. I shouldn't have to change what I am, or how I present to make people comfortable."

Edited Date: 2026-03-21 10:58 pm (UTC)

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astraymoon

"Maybe. Maybe not."

He shrugs, and closes his eyes, chin on his knees.

"I just know people think I'm a freak, and have used that. Maybe they'll do the same to you. Or have."

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methodofmadness

"Oh, they do." He isnt unaware of it.

He puts a hand on the couch cushion between them and leans closer, speaking softly but seriously.

"But... where I come from, it's more than just a name to call someone. And finding other monsters is important. There was a community right under the city I grew up in, living together and not bothering anyone. But they were exterminated, just because of what they are."

They were all gone before he even knew they existed. "If I pretend that isnt who i am, maybe I'm safe, but not everyone can hide. And even if they do, hunters might still find them. So, we are stronger together."

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astraymoon

He didn't move, though he winced at the use of the word. Still.

"That's a history, and a shitty one at that." His own voice was soft. "I didn't know, I don't know what I am. I just found out. It might be the thing that killed me."

He swallowed, looking away.

"I'm not from your world though. You understand that? Why it's a lot to take in right now?"

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methodofmadness

Christopher wants him to feel like he isn't alone, wants him to feel connected, but John told him slow. He pulls back, stays on his side of the couch, frowns down at his lap.

"I'm sorry." He sniffs, glancing over at him and back at his lap.

"I spent my whole life not knowing why I was different. Trying to be normal so hard it hurt...so no, I- I guess I don't. I learned, just about a year ago, and I finally had the answer I'd been looking for to explain everything. O-or some of it." Adam didn't tell him everything, the gaps were still so immense.

"But...even if I don't understand, I still want to be your friend. And even if it bothers you? It doesn't bother me, and maybe that can help?"

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astraymoon

"I don't know." He kept hugging his knees. He couldn't hurt himself this way, like he used to. Something in the ship did that to him.

"I don't know. I don't know a whole lot. I don't...know if we could be friends."

He bit on his lip. Sucked on it. "But...we can try."

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methodofmadness

Chris was sure that with that many I don't knows the possibility of any kind of positive outcome was more slim with each one. But when Germaryah decides that it is at least worth a try, his whole face lights up.

"Yeah?"

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astraymoon

"Yeah."

He offered a soft nod. "But we're taking it slow. And, well, yeah you can touch. Your hands aren't weird."

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methodofmadness

His smile gets a little brighter at that, "Thanks! Um, because we're friends, was...there anything you wanted me to call you? Or maybe Peggy and I can work shop it?"

Peggy coos softly, half asleep on the couch back. "She's really good at nicknames."

Edited Date: 2026-03-22 04:05 am (UTC)

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astraymoon

"John told you about my name." Or he picked it up. Chris wasn't completely dense, he thought. "Peggy, your...undead pigeon...can give good nicknames?"

Just to verify.

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methodofmadness

"You said you didn't like it" he was there, he has ears and actually used them when Ger was trying to trade with him.

He looks over at Peggy and she gives another coo, fluttering her wings. "Yeah! She's really good at it. I get all my best ideas when she's around too, so we'll crack this in no time."